Robin Chappell
That twinkle there in your eyes
I see my thirst for love
The inevitability of being addicted to you like a drug
Gazing fearlessly into your face tends to add a smile to mine
So I fearfully pull back
On my knees praying that God provides me an obvious sign
Venturing through this phase causes me to predictably go blind
The beginning is beautifully Shakespearean, only to end in tragedy
I swear I see a brighter future behind your dark eyes
My past pushes me to perceive nothing but lies
Feeling like I let you in too soon
You became the sunlight igniting the shadows of my moon
You discovered me after I became lost within the depths of my broken heart
We never comprehend where loneliness ends at its start
In my soul still lies decay after a dying storm
Laying heavy on my mind as it takes an unbearable form
It causes me to lash out once I feel an abundance of your calming vibes
I later constantly apologize, knowing you made me feel alive
Now as your strong hands intertwine with mine
I release a fleeting breath with my guard still manning the front line
It levels out and balances all of the hope you have built
I backtrack and jerk back from every small touch of yours that I feel
Is it wrong to struggle internally if I promised myself I’d live selfishly?
This timing…I ask myself is it really worth finding?
Yet, on this green earth I just so happened to find you
Please excuse my lack of confidence
Pardon my thorough examination of conciousness
Because I told myself the last time would be the final
And here I am…rolling my sleeves and lacing my boots for control
Another battle round against the new and the old
I am now in love with your soul
Robin Chappell 