The Back of My Mind

By Robin Chappell/10 December 2021

Photo by Mikhail Nilov on Pexels.com

I cleared it away with frustration

Every little kiss, every tingling sensation

Work and time makes the feelings pass by

-Temporarily.

There is rarely a day that I don’t think of you

-through rose colored lenses

As I tell myself I’m free with meditation and cleanses

Ridding you….detoxing you…clearing you away…

It’s OK…it’s all in the back of my mind like the truth

Memories are rendered into a smile across my face

Then suddenly they turn into a bitter distaste

I believe no time is considered a waste

Only lessons learned more intricately than lace

Time has passed and time is overdue

But it’s all in the back of my mind like the truth

What am I? And what are you?

Monsters living in the folds of our youth

I cringe when I see your name or your face

Then later feel guilty after I masturbate

Confusing as it is, I can’t seem to let it go

No matter how much pain it cost me or the secrets I know

Over and over again….each time I would let it be you

I store everything in the back of my mind like the God’s honest truth

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